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Today's been Nick's birthday; we got a free pizza and it was perfect because we got diet root beer and had a party, we're watching "JONAS" to finish off.

I also have to say, I'm sorry, but Kevin's guitar playing is sounding quite sexy to me at this point, I mean, he always sounds amazing to me, obviously, but I'm feeling rather like I've come down with a case of the vapors, I do declare, as they say in the stereotypical old South. I think it's the jalapenos I put on the pizza, or perhaps the hot sauce I added to the "perfect" omelette I made in honour of the fact that Nick said "A perfect omelette is the key to life". Idk, but yeah...

Current Mood:	flirty
Current Music:	"Lovebug": Jonas Brothers

So, I think I was saying that I'm no longer in love with Remy from X-Men Origins, well, after the movie went out of theatres, you know, I mean, I had pictures, but I didn't really see much of him, and it kind of got to this point where I assumed I was no longer in love with him, but I did feel like there was something there, if I though about it. I didn't, thpugh, I just was like, oh, I must not be in love with him anymore, I've moved on, as it were, it was easier not seeing as much of him to think that, to assume it, but, well, I'm sure you can figure what I'm getting at, yes, I am still in love with Remy! It is so odd, I mean, I'm getting used to it, but I told myself I was over him, then I saw a commercial for the movie (which I am totally getting, btw), you know, and those feelings came back, or more accurately resurfaced, and I was like, okay, I'm not have that affininity feeling after you fall out of love with a person, I am actually feeling in love feelings! It isn't like with Conner where I kept realising how I felt, you know, but yeah, it's pretty crazy, love is crazy, but I love it! *laughs*
Oh, and just so you know, I also still in love with Eliot (I think he and Remy are about even, but at the moment I feel like Remy's a bit more because I'm thinking about him more just now discovering what I have) and certainly Kevin and Conner (from last to first).

Current Mood:	content
Current Music:	"That's Just the Way We Roll": Jonas Brothers

So, first off, I saw "Ponyo" on the 17th, and Oh, my God, SEE that movie, people! I tell you what, it is so incredibly beautiful, I think it's overtaken AtU as my favourite film, seriously. I originally went to see it since Frankie (the Bonus Jonas) does a voice in there. I love Mayazaki's work ("Spirited Away" is another film I love, though not as much as "Pony"; he's a genius, you know, but I don't think I woulf have made the effort to see the film in the theatre if not for Frankie being in it, as it were, and I am so glad for that, because it is a wonderful film to go see, really, it is amazing. See it!

At any rate, now on to some splendid news! Well, that will sound bad at first, when I say what it is, but I'll explain: I am no longer in love with Nick. I am only in love with Kevin now! Yes! I mean to say, I still love Nick, I wasn't like, wanting to fall out of love with him, but now, you know, my favourite is Kevin, Maggie's is Nick, and well, I am even more in love with Kevin, oh, lord am I in love with Kevin! The only other person I'm more in love with ever, is Conner, and he's "the One", as they say, you know, but Nick was just like Daniel or Max, not like way more, definitely. Kevin, I gah, I just, how I feel when I see him or think about him, hear him, even when I just hear his guitar on their records. He's so incredibly beautiful to me, and his eyes, and he has this way about him, this sweet, friendly way similar to Conner, so, yeah, but they aren't very much alike overall. I don't know. Oh, I'm still definitely fairly strongly in love with Eliot, but not nearly as much as Kevin or of course Conner. I think the most about Kevin. Idk. It's like this understanding with Conner, I can't explain. I don't see him as much... Yeah, though, I do so love Kevin! He is absolutely hands down the most amazingly beautiful, incredible, wonderful... Whatever other positive adjectives like that to ever walk the face of this green earth, I swear, I just, whatever. I don't know. I can't, it's like, I was even worse with Conner. The more in love with someone I am, the less I can express it, except at a certain point as I say with Nick and Daniel and Max, but again, this is so beyond that, and OMJ, I can not even tell you how much I adore Kevin's smile! I love his teeth; they are small like mine, and his mouth is small, but it doesn't look very much like mine; it's very like, cupidish. I guess anyone who reads this has probably seen him and knows what I mean, but yeah, oh, and his teeth are rounded (like Conner's). Yeah, though, I don't think all those words I said, all the adjectives I can't convey, it's silly, and I can't get through what he means to me, but again, whatever. I am just as completely in love with him as it's possible to be with someone who is not your soul-mate, so, yeah.

I feel like I actually had something else to say, but I don't remember what it was; that happens a lot when I focus on Kevin... *sighs*

Current Mood:	determined
Current Music:	"Send it On": Friends for Change

First off, today's been Joe's birthday; he turned 20, and by coincidence, this also happens to be Nick, Kevin Joe and Frankie's parents' (Denise and Kevin Sr.) anniversary!

Also, I saw the Jonas Brothers on the 9th, my first actual concert of theirs, before that I saw them in 2007 open for Miley, and yeah, the 9th was the greatest day ever to me, honestly, at least until I go to another concert; my favourite part was when Nick sang "Fly With Me" then went into a medley of "Black Keys" and "A Little Bit Longer" where he made a speech about not letting your problems slow you down, no matter what; it was so beautiful and inspiring! A friend of mine recorded it at her concert (it was a different one than I went to, but he basically did the same thing, you know, so, yeah. I also loved when they did "Poison Ivy", and there were these like lasers in the shape of vines above the stage; it was so awesome, then "Lovebug" there was this indoor rain, essentially, with like designs of hearts and the song name and stuff, plus Kevin was like modeling this awesome Bogart type raincoat at the beginning. I got to see a lot of Kevin because we were right near where he changed guitars, and he changes guitars a lot. At one point, something made him smile really wide; it was lovely!

...And speaking of Kevin, well, you may notice I'm mentioning him a lot, maybe not, but anyways, I have to say something very interesting: I am solidly in love with four people now, including Kevin! Yes! I know! So, obviously I'm still in love with Eliot, Nick and Conner (especially Conner). I think I'm a bit more in love with Nick; he's still my favourite Jonas, but Kevin is obviously a very close second, my love for him has actually been turning out to be stronger than I expected, but honestly, I think I somehow always saw this coming, even though I only had an affinity on Kevin, and it should be odd that I didn't fall in love with Joe instead (though God knows that's possible), but somehow it's not, I don't know, but yeah, so, Kevin was my favourite, then my second, third, now second again. I was thinking about this dream I had where I hug him, I wasn't in love with him then, of course, but it was a very realistic dream; it's quite memorable and wonderful to think about now, of course. I've had a number of other JB dreams, but they're for another entry, but yeah, now I'm in love with two Jonas Brothers and almost in love with the third; that has never come close to happening before, I mean like being in love with two people on a show at the same time or some such thing, maybe for a bit until the next love like, solidified and the other one faded, as it were, but yeah, the JB are special is my point.

Current Mood:	enthralled
Current Music:	"Poison Ivy": Jonas Brothers

So, I've fallen in love again, this time it's someone I honestly thought I had that thing with, oh, well I've mentioned him, when I was saying about how I'm like permanently on the verge of falling in love with, well, it turns out it's possible to go over that even after a while, and that's happened with Eliot. It's so weird, too, because, like, I pretty well went an entire season feeling that one way, then the premiere of the second season was on, and I don't know, I just, I could tell before, I think, that things had changed, you know, my way of thinking, my reasons for not actually being in love with him, that didn't matter anymore, but I guess I didn't fully realise that until one scene where he smiles and laughs about this guy the team is getting because he made him think he was being shot at. Eliot put these charger things on a wall and set them off when the guy came around; they were harmless like that, but of course the guy didn't know, so, yeah, Eliot of course got a kick out of him freaking out. Anyways, I just got that feeling when I saw that, it doesn't always happen that way, and I didn't even realise wha\t was going on at first because I already felt pretty strongly, but later I was thinking about it, and I was like, Oh, my God, am I really in love with Eliot, and I knew I was, but yeah. It's funny, though, because I knew him before better than anyone else with whom I've been in love, before. I mean, usually I only know a person well enough to know that I can fall in love with them, apparently, but yeah, I am very aware of Eliot, how he thinks, what he likes,but the thing is, I didn't see him,l not really, not like you do when you're in love with someone, and I noticed him a lot, but yeah.

I have to say, though, I'm definitely still in love Conner and Nick; what I said before about Conner, how he means more to me than anyone else, that I love him more than anyone else ever and probably always will; he's different, I can't explain, I could say he's "the one", you know, but yeah, of course that still stands. I'm actually more in love with Nick than Eliot as well, but I am very much in love with Eliot, too, so, yeah.

Oh, also, OMJ, Maggie's in love with Nick now, too!! She's not in love with Joe anymore, and this marks the first time we've both been in love with the same person, not even just at the same time, at all.

Current Mood:	weird
Current Music:	"Tonight": Jonas Brothers

So, I've been a vegetarian for years now, well, not exactly a vegetarian, but I only ate fish; then I learned that Joe loves chicken sandwiches and cheeseburgers. I thought about how all the Jonas Brothers love barbecue chicken pizza from the California Pizza Kitchen, and, so, yeah. I've started eating meat again, except being Jewish and all, of course I don't consume pork in any form, and there are a few animals I have affinities for, if you will, but overall, yeah, chicken, beef, turkey... I'd even eat venison and rabbit, and of course I still consume fish (except shark and marlins, and as far as seafood in general, I won't eat lobster or crab as the way they're usually cooked and all). It's funny, too, because I tried to eat chicken a while back, before I knew about the JB (indeed, before they were even a band), and I couldn't do it, but now, I couldn't wait to eat a chicken sandwich with mayo like Joe! *laughs* I think it helps that there's better regulation these days as far as how animals are treated as well, but yeah. I mean, I'm thinking like most people, you know, they love animals, but we eat meat, typically, and I'm so glad I'm back to being that way!

As to the Vlog, yeah, I've started one on YouTube (this is pretty well why I haven't been on here so much lately). I have a new account called JBFanVlog, where I manly talk about the Jonas Brothers, various things with them, and I have a few videos about them as well, not in the entries, you know.
One thing I have is, there is a contest going on where if you make a cover of "Fly With Me", you could win a guitar; there are two, and I don't know that I have a shot, but I thought it would be fun to try. I just sang acapella, but one person said it was great, so that made me feel good!

Maggie has fallen in love with Joe, so she's way into the JB like I am now. I also have to say, I think I mentioned that I have a crush on Joe, but now, I mean, maybe I did at that time, but I have this thing where I'll develop a really strong infatuation for someone, and either it turns into love or it fades away, but on three occasions now (the other two are Eliot from "Leverage" and Hoss from "Bonanza"), I've basically stayed in a permanent thing where I'm on the verge of falling in love, and yeah, that's how I am with Joe; the reason with him is Nick. I am far too in love with Joe's younger brother to fall in love with him! The other two, I think it actually has to do with as far as I can tell, they're already taken, and yeah, I don't know if that always matters, but the circumstances somehow... I don't know. With Hoss the time thing may be a factor as well, you know. I'm not sure, of course, but that's a possibility.

Anyways, I mentioned affinities in a sense on a few animals, but I have major affinities, well, an affinity with Kevin, that one sort of affinity/infatuation type thing with Joe, then of course I'm in love with Nick; so, yeah, my point is that I love all of them very much; they're so beautiful and wonderful to me, Nick the most, but yeah.

So, last but not least here, I have to say that Kevin is getting married! I'm so excited! He proposed to his long-time girlfriend Danielle, and so, yeah, I am way happy for them! ^_^

Current Mood:	relieved
Current Music:	"Don't Charge Me for the Crime": Jonas Brothers

I saw "The Hangover" with my friend Dave and my sister. We originally wanted to see "Land of the Lost", but I couldn't get out in time. Well, I will probably catch that at some point, and anyways, "The Hangover" is great, totally hillarious, and it actually has character development and stuff like that.

At any rate, so, I got Lines, Vines and Trying Times on the 15th, along with my JB bag. I absolutely love both. The bag totally suits my needs and has the added bonus of people seeing that I love the Jonas Brothers, and the album, well, it is just super awesome! My favourite song on there is definitely "Fly With Me", then "Don't Charge Me for the Crime", "Hey Baby" and "Poison Ivy". I also love "Before the Storm", "Black Keys", "Turn Right", "Paranoid", "Don't Speak" and "World War III". The last few songs are "Much Better", "Keep it Real" and "What Did I do to Your Heart". I love those songs, just not as much, you know, but yeah, the album definitely rates five out of five stars in my book.

As for Larry King being an ass... Okay, they were on his show, the live show, you know, and there was this thing where people asked questions, not just Larry King, I think, and someone asked what is something people might not know about each of them, and Nick, bless him, came up with the fact that a fan had pointed out he basically has the "Little Dipper" constellation on the side of his face with the way his freckles are, and when he said that, Larry King made this quip about how he'll be getting plastic surgery. I'm sure he didn't totally mean it, but still, I just think that was such a messed up thing to say, even if it was a joke. I love Nick's constellation freckles, and I'd never think about saying something like that about them. I'm glad he's not the sort of person to consider that, you know, 'cause some people would. Yeah, though, that just pissed me off a little, probably more than it did Nick... I don't know, it was just inappropriate is all.

Current Mood:	content
Current Music:	"Poison Ivy ": Jonas Brothers

First off, I saw BotS again on the 10th and 11th. I also discovered on the 10th that I have been wearing pants that, at size 14, are seven sizes too big. On the 11th, along with the movie, I got "Camp Rock" barrettes, ponytail holders and a mini calendar. Plus, there is an interview with Denise (the JB's mum) in Good Housekeeping, and she and the boys are on the cover and all (only the band members are on the cover by the way, not Frankie), so of course I bought that.

Alright, then yesterday, I went with Maggie and our mum to the Getty Center where we met up with my and my sister's aunt Annelyse, aunt Jan (both my mum's sisters; aunt Jan is the youngest, incidentally) and the latter's two sons (our cousins) Josh and Justin, whom we haven't seen in ages. It was great, and the art was incredible, as always. I got to see some Monets, Reniors, "Christ's Entry into Brussels", which is a painting by James Ensor, and half the subject of a book given to me by my mum's partner Wendy (the other half is Dylan's song "Desolation Row", the book has the lyrics of the song with images from the painting that match; it is super awesome and probably my favourite thing I've gotten from Wendy), a lot of fine photography...
Back to my cousins, though, I can't believe I'm going to admit this, but okay, again, I haven't seen them in such a long time. Josh in particular (because I did see Justin and Aunt Jan like a year and a half ago at least, though before that it had been several years), he was like 13 or something, and now he's about 23, and when I saw him, and then to top it off, his personality... Yeah, I think you know where I'm going with this; talk about something I will never ever tell my sister (even though I kind of really want to for some reason). Oh, he designed the cover for this album and did something for this other one (I just know he wasn't a performer on it) that Aunt Jan gave us (me and Maggie).

I also want to say, why not. I drank a red bull before I came there, then I had some tea and a Diet Coke, so needless to say I was quite wired. Oh, and after the Getty, Mum too Me and Maggie to this place called Jerry's Deli (Jerry is Nick's middle name ^_^). I had the Buffalo shrimp, which is an appetiser, but it was what I felt the most like. I ordered a Brooklyn egg cream to drink, but I decided I wanted this thing called a Happy Shake, which is a shake made with frozen yogurt, fat free milk and bananas, and now that I think of it, is probably the best shake I've ever had, so I gave my egg cream to Maggie. For desert I got Dutch (I'm prett sure it was Dutch) bread pudding to go, and I've pretty well used up my sugar quota this week for all that (still, I think it didn't all have that> much sugar in it, and it was worth it anyways).

Current Mood:	annoyed
Current Music:	"One Man Show": Jonas Brothers

I forgot to say that the JB answered a question I posed to them in the webcast! Well, I actually didn't realise it was my question they were asking, because somehow I didn't see that I'd posted it, but considering they mentioned it right at the time I would've posted it, in the exact way I asked it... Anyways, the question was "What is your favourite pizza topping?" They each said barbecue chicken from California Pizza Kitchen.

So, I saw "Up" and Battle of the Smithsonian yesterday. I love the first mentioned, but the latter was definitely my favourite of the two, and that's not because the JB are basically in the movie as cherubs (if you see it, you'll know better about what I'm talking, or even that an amazing new song of theirs, "Fly With Me" is featured in the credits, no, all that is just sugar free icing on the cake, as it were, because BotS would be an awesome movie anyways. I loved the first Night at the Museum, but yeah, the second one was by far the best; it gave me this really good feeling. I mean, "Up" gave me a good feeling, yeah, but not as strongly, you know.

So... As to that last topic, it is true. I have come to the realisation, that is, I'm ready to admit the fact that I am actually in love with Nick Jonas, as insane and inappropriate as that may be. To quote Woody Allen "The heart wants what it wants; there's no logic to these things."
Yeah, though, people are always talking about how "cute" and "hot" he is, and I don't get it. I mean, I know they don't see him the way I do, but still, I don't get how they can't see that he is so beautiful, and they say they want to marry him. Really? Do you actually want to be married to Nick Jonas, the person, who is human, is going to grow old and wrinkly, that sort of stuff? Or do you want to be married to this "perfect" fantasy idea of Nick, who stays young, with a full head of hair forever? I used to think I didn't want kids, and I think that I don't necessarily feel I need to have kids, but if I married Nick (hypothetically speaking, of course, very unfortunately) and he wanted kids, I'd have no problem with that. I just, I really want to be with him, you know, in a realistic way. I wrote a song for him, too, but yeah, I'm probably freaking people out, maybe not. I don't know. I don't care. I know none of that will ever happen, but it helps to talk about it, so, yeah.

Current Mood:	contemplative
Current Music:	"7:05": Jonas Brothers

So, I've pretty well lost all faith in the Supreme Court, but I know those who fight for true equality will win out.

At any rate, on a much better note... Guess who I'm seeing in August? The same lovely boys who held a webcast about two and a half hours ago. Yes! Obviously, I am talking about the Jonas Brothers! Ach I am beyond excited about this! I mean, I saw them before, for the Best of Both Worlds concert, but not as much, and I wasn't as into them, and I didn't feel the way I do about Nick. Yeah, sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo (that's not enough, but oh well) excited!!!!!!!

Current Mood:	excited
Current Music:	"Paranoid": Jonas Brothers